aniwae, e guy she went out wit is her fren... she said she jus wans some advice frm him... all her other frens tell her 2 break up wit him... but she doesnt wan 2... so she went out wit dis guy instead... one stOOpid thing is dat she lied 2 razali dat she went out 2 buy roti near her hse when he called her... but nooo... bobal2, tak trsampai umah je... so he felt somethin was wrong... he asked her again n again til she told e truth which is abt e guy thing...
ya... he was pissed... he called me n said he had chosen me... den e guy called him... xplained evrithin 2 him... so its back 2 square one... n 2dae, he's goin out wit her... jelez? yes... veri much... but i dun wanna bother em... drg nyer hal, solve sndirik... i tk nk msk campor...
cos if u realize... its alwaes either him or her yg uat hal... here we are, werkin our butt off, n there she goes, goin out wit sum guy of hers... stOOpid sia... i realli wan 2 let go u noe... im sick n tired of waiting... waiting... waiting... n i dun think i could win dis war... i haf a feeling he would choose her... but on e other hand, she even haf a feeling he would choose me... we're basicalli like 2 idiots goin fer one loverboy... or mayb playboy... lol...
i dunno la... i still have feelings fer him... he expected me 2 cry fer him yestrdae.. he was like lookin into ma eyes, hopin fer me 2 cry after he xplained evrithin again... i was holdin back ma tears... cos i noe its no use crying... n im sick n tired of it... e times when i got 2 noe abt all dis, i cried e hell out of me... i kept askin maself, "y muz it b me???"... AGAIN! i cried so much, i cant seem cry animore...
aniwae, his decisions were dis... if he goes 2 her, he would still go out wit me... he WANS 2 go out wit me, TALK 2 me on e phone... i was like, "isnt dis like repeatin wat uve done b4???" he jus said life wouldnt b e same w/o me... *uh watever... den choose me la idioOOt!* he still wans 2 b wit me... but i told him, i would feel veri guilty if i go out wit him, talk 2 him on e phone while he's still wit her... how would she feel seh... den he said, "if she can go out wit guy frens of hers, y not me...???" den i jus kept quiet... BUT... if he goes wit me, he would still go out wit her... but he noes it wouldnt b e same wit her... life would b diff... haish... he said one disadv of choosin me, is ma age... jarak umor jaoh... he told me if i was oledi 21, he would alreadi chose me... but im not... dats veri hurtful 2 hear, u noe... age matters 2 him.. dats y i jus wanna let him go... let em b... im jus e third party hu ruins their so called B-E-A-U-T-ful relationship... im jus hopeless... veri much... hopeless...
